Dear Andrei, I watched your video and I sat here at my job and, God, it made me smile. I am a Creative Director of a very successful web design agency and I design huge web sites all day long. Everything you said in your video in one shape or another I've gone through. For years I posted in my blog http://www.mabelyn.com/sitemap.htm as I taught myself html and design. I wrote down my thoughts mostly for myself. I never did it for popularity or any such thing but just as a way to remember. It's great to go back to posts in 2000 and see where I was at. Anyway, I'm reluctant to post this lest you think I'm some kind of Andrei groupie wanting to, I don't know, talk about useless crap like the weather but...fuck it...here's my letter. I'm happily married and not looking to hook up or any such thing. However, I am from NYC and know a whole lot about design. Further you seem to know a whole lot about, well...a whole lot...so if you want to grab a coffee in Starbucks I'd be down. That being said, good luck in NYC!!! Best, –Mabe
Nicely put, Mabe. And same here, Andrei. I'm not a weirdi - or a groupie. I like conversation with intelligent people. We all get into that place in life where we look around and wonder what the heck we're doing. We think about what we could have done, or should have done, and we think about those things we didn't do. It's called getting older, and for some, it's called growing up. I wish you the best in life, and I always look forward to seeing what my friends are doing. So keep posting, my friend. Those who aren't worth it will fade away, but your friends (near and far) will always stand beside you.
I was actually searching for pictures of you and found your site. I usually get bored at 3am when I'm on break, and I don't even know why I decided to google your pictures anymore, but listening to this post made me think. I'm probably writing this more for me than you as well and will come back to it later, but at this point in my life I'm rather weird as well. No not even this point I've been this way for about a year or more now. I don't like talking to people unless it's necessary and I hardly ever go out with friends anymore. I used to be opposite of the way I act now and went out a lot and neglected school and other things. Now I'm just so focused on getting my degree and my future that nothing else feels important, but sometimes I feel there is something wrong with me so I go out and try to converse with other people. Sometimes I do feel the need to just talk to someone who is around because them being next to you in awkward silence is weird, and after I think it's good to talk to people you don't know because these days I can't keep people close to me. If I talk to people randomly and they'd like to go out or talk again I shy away from it and only talk when I'm in the mood to. I've actually broke up with my boyfriend recently for the same reason I don't want the pressure of having a connection to someone and I feel obligated to go out with them. I don't know if it's normal my family doesn't seem to mind since I'm not getting myself into trouble or doing bad things anymore, but I wonder if it's normal behavior for a 21 year old. I think maybe it will be worth it though when I get to where I want to be with my future. A lot of my friends are stressing with age after 21 saying they will be old, but I feel like I'm still young and I'll be just as young in 2 years when I graduate and 4 years when I'm more established. Who knows maybe I'm wasting my youth, but the idea of going out everyday like I used to and just partying isn't appealing to me at the moment. It was nice hearing you talk about this and your future because it makes you seem real and not just a handsome face on a advertisement. Sorry, I think I've made your blog post a mini blog for myself. Maybe I should make myself a blog I didn't realize how therapeutic writing the extremely real thoughts I wouldn't share with anyone really is. I wish you luck in all that you do.
After writing pretty much a blog post as a comment I decided to start my own blog. Thank you for inspiring me too, and I hope you continue writing in your blog since you are pretty much the first blog I'll be following. I can't wait to find more people who blog, though I don't really know how.
Sometimes people say the most when they think they are saying nothing at all. I have had many times when I felt like I had so much going on in my own head that I really had no room for anyone or anything else. You're not alone there.